Please Notice: If this is your first time reading, I advise you to read both chatpters 1, 2, & 3. If you don’t read them you wont understand the story.

Chapter 4
“Why did God give me this life”

I scooted up,  I realized that I was in my car again, Did the angel bring me back here? Did he put my car on the side of the road? Or, was this just a dream? I turned on my car, I had high fuel this time, Have I lost my mind? Do I need help? I think I need to seek some therapy. I laid back and started this over, I start the car and call Kelly again. “Hello? Beyonce? Beyonce? Are you okay?” “Yeah I’m fine, Hey, um, did I call you earlier today?” I asked. “Yeah you did, You hung up on me. Did you lose service?” Kelly asked, “Yeah, I lost service,” I said, I was already tired of talking, all I wanted to do is have a nice meal at my favorite restaurant in New York, But to be honest, I didn’t even feel like driving that far, I realized that I was THAT far from Kelly’s house, So I told her I’d drop by just to cozy and warm, when I checked the clock it was 6pm, I parked in Kelly’s garage where she had it open, I hurried and buttoned my shirt again, the angel really fucked me up good, and when I mean good I mean ‘good’

            I hoped out my car and hugged Kelly, she seemed terrified, “Beyonce, you need to go shower girl, you really stank” I guess that was okay, I did stink anyways. I put down my stuff, and before I put my stuff down I got this text message, it said “See you tonight” I replied back “who is  this?” I went to go shower, when I walked inside the bathroom I smelled this fine, strawberry, flower smell. I pull of my clothes, I hop inside the shower, I really just stood there, thinking about my baby, I wanted to hold her, once again, I wanted to feel her tender soft skin, once again I started crying, bursting into tears, why? Why did I sudden think about Blue, I don’t know, then suddenly, the shower started getting smoky, real smoky, It was weed clouds, I started getting this feeling in my chest, I couldn’t breath at all, I slipped on the hard red bricks on the ground chocking, the more I chocked I saw this white think in the cloud on smoke, it had a knife, it looked like he was mad, he looked like he was actually about kill me, but I didn’t care if I did die at this point, I just wanted all of this bullshit to stop, as soon as he was fixing to stab me I heard screaming it was Kelly, she was screaming “No! No! Somebody HELP!” I got up as fast again, I opened the shower door and the floor was RED, I slipped again,  I got up and saw my rob, my rob was soaking wet, full of red stuff, I put it on I heard screaming once again, although this time I heard slapping, I heard bumping & growling at this point I ran out the restroom, I was screaming “KELLY? KELLY?” I crying running for my life, I looked everywhere, then, the house went silent, I walked slow, & quiet, I went down stairs, went to the kitchen, then “KABOOM” I heard a gun the house the I heard bumping and growling, I grabbed one of Kelly’s long knife’s, it was 12 inches long, the size of a ruler, I walked, & walked, & walked shaking, breathing hard, I heard the door screech, footsteps walking toward the dining room, I ran and ran into one of the cabinets, I hid in there, I was breathing so hard, I had to cover my mouth just to stop me from breathing, I peeped inside the the little hole that was inside the cabinet and I find to see that it’s a man with a BB Gun, and a long knife in his pocket, longer than the knife in my hand, but no, this was just no normal person, this man had a deformed shaped head, stitches’ on one of his eyes, crooked fingers, I was terrified, there was rats in the cabinet, the pipes started oozing red stuff. The man walked out again, this time, he walked out of the door,  I got the cabinet and the rats ran out, then “BOOM BOOM BOOM BOOM” he walked and ran, I ran upstairs, and ran in Kelly’s room, and I hid under the bed, he opened every door in the house, and shot at it, then finally, he came in Kelly’s bedroom, he open a closet door, then there was Kelly, with gushes’ of blood on her head, her arms, her legs, and it was on her clothes, she was chained from head to toe, he broke the chains except the chains on her feet and legs, then she was breathing hard, he was stripping her clothes off, then I heard bumping, I heard moaning, loud moaning, but the moaning sounded like it hurt, he was raping her, hard,  and finally gushes, of blood squirted out of Kelly’s vagina, it was too hard for me to watch, it was crazy, I couldn’t deal, with the hurt in her voice, the anxiety of her orgasm, I couldn’t watch this at all, it was gross, where is Kelly’s boyfriend at this point? Its like 8:00pm, he should be here by now. The man pulled up his dirty pants, pulled up Kelly’s underwear, and he took her somewhere, I really didn’t know, I was crying so hard. Then all of sudden, I was dragged from under the bed, I was screaming loud, He was kicking me, punching the life out me, he growling, and saying “Get back here you fucking bitch” I kicked him in his nose, He tiped on the bed, I grab the knife  from under the bed, and then I was ready to stab him, then “BOOM” he slapped me, fell inside the closet Kelly was raped in, then I kicked him and grabbed his gun, and ran, as I was on my way out of the house, I was screaming, breathing hard, trying to find Kelly, I couldn’t find her, I really couldn’t. So I was in the front of the house trying to get the door open, but I couldn’t get it open so I had to break the glass with the gun I had. And out the door I cried, I broke down in the middle of the street with my rob untied, my boobs and everything hanging out,

I was crying to myself, “why do I have to go through such pain, Why do I have countinue my life in such struggle?

Why, Did God give me, this life?”